sweet boy & good friday

yesterday afternoon caroline & i headed over to athens.

we were hooking up with savannah and three of her best girlfriends for a little

friendship/noonday photoshoot.

we were forecast to have rain so i felt like i was racing with the devil to get there

& get some shots in.

basically the clouds moved on & we ended up with a gorgeous sunset

& a gorgeous spring night.

i'll be back next week to share some of these gorgeous girls

in all their Noonday glory.

 

got home late last night to find out my brinkley had been throwing up

& unable to go to the bathroom.

that followed a fitful night of sleep where

each time he moved , i woke up.

& he whimpered to go outside

multiple times ( very out of character)

& tried to "go" each time.

i called our vet first thing in the morning & was able to get him in pronto.

they love him there.

love him.

they ran blood work

(negative for pancreatitis, common in goldens)

& xrays were taken.

xrays were inconclusive for obstruction, which was & still is my fear.

(i lost a black lab years ago to this issue).

the vet felt he didn't present as an obvious obstruction case

& that since he looked stable

& that to open him up for surgery 

while it could be done

didn't seem the prudent choice.

we brought him home & have been feeding him rice, cottage cheese

yogurt and green beans.

he's been able to keep that down but still is unable to go.

we threw him some tennis balls-his favorite activity on the planet

& it's clear , he's not 100%.

i tell you what.

i just don't know how to suck it up & act all good

when things like this happen.

fear eats me alive.

i guess i love big

& i love wide open.

therefore when those i love are in jeopardy

it's a huge, almost unattainable quest

for me to trust that things will be ok.

i also realize that for many, "he's just a dog".

but for me, he's far from that.

i've been fuzzy all day & just a distracted wreck.

plus, i clearly don't function well on little to no sleep.

i praying he sleeps well & is better in the morning.

if not, surgery may be the next step.

we have tickets for the Good Friday service

which is nothing short of an amazing contemplation of the cross

& worship service.

powerful, so powerful, & beautiful celebration of our Jesus

& his death and Resurrection.

(caroline made this little diptych from some of my iphone images).

i'm praying that brinkley is all better tomorrow

& that i'm able to attend what has been one of my favorite events of the year.

we truly have so much to be thankful for this Easter.

~~

"By your wounds we are healed
  You have conquered the grave
And in your rising, we will rise
To carry your name
Above every name "

christy nockels