i'm thinking there were some that doubted we should marry.
i know there were some that felt it would be a great thing too.
but i knew beyond a shadow of a doubt....
it was going to be wonderful!
it had only been a couple years since my gregg had passed away.
i had met dan & gregg at the same time,
they were roomates.
while they had many similarities~
tall dark & handsome basketball coaches
who both loved the lord
both were very smart
& both had a great sense of humor.
they were very very different.
dan actually intimidated me a bit back then.
he was very intellectual & maybe a little quiet when i was around.
gregg was very outgoing & quite the life of the party.
he drove a convertible and a motorcycle.
wild curly hair, shirts untucked
he was flirt
where dan was very reserved.
buttoned up & tucked in.
dan was a groomsmen in our wedding.
he was quite the eligibile bachelor.
i remember saying,
when that boy marries,
he's gonna love that woman forever.
a few years after gregg passed away,
dan ended up as an administrator at the school where savannah
was attending kindergarten ~~
i fell hard.
he was so gentle and protective of me
he knew gregg, better than i did, and that brought me great comfort.
he would come over & play with the girls.
i felt so safe with him.
it was so natural.
we married outside in a garden
in the morning.
a four string quartet played lovely music
not a cloud in the sky.
the fragrance of flowers in the air.
he promised to be with me forever
& promised the girls to love them as their daddy.
he adopted them a couple years later
& we legally changed their names.
emi was a newborn when gregg passed
& madi was 19 months,
but savannah was 3 and "knew" her daddy gregg.
we dropped her middle name & added miller
(that was my married name with gregg)
we would all have the same last name
as a family.
if you didn't know dan wasn't their biological daddy
you'd have no reason to wonder.
incidentally, people would tell us how much madi
looked just like her 'daddy' (dan) all the time.
those blue eyes.
thirteen years later
i can't even begin to imagine my life without you dan.
you are my soul mate
you've never raised your voice at me
you always put the toilet seat down
& take me out to eat....whenever i ask...& let me chose the place too.
you don't throw dirty boxers on the floor
you empty the dishwasher.
i know you'll never leave me
you promise me that. frequently.
you tell me i'm the only one you've ever loved.
you tell me that. often.
you give me your full attention
& take me to seaside.
you are gentle and strong
loyal and good
you truly love us girls unconditionally.
you tell me that. every. single. day.
i'm so glad you married me...