last night i crawled into bed
i wasn't sleepy yet
but dantheman had a migraine & was turning in.
i hate to go to sleep after him
something about that creeps me out a little bit.
so i climbed in , pulled the covers up
& starting praying.
yes i'm guilty of praying myself to sleep
but felt certain this would not be one of those nights.
so wide awake & all
i laid really still
i think i made an audible sigh
& realized
i haven't spent time with Him in a while.
sure i talk about Him
& i sing about Him
i read about Him
but the last several weeks
i did exactly opposite of what i wanted to do.
i let some of the things i love to do
get all my attention.
i hadn't really spent any real , quite, quality time with Him.
i run everyday
i take photos everyday
i read blogs everyday
& i clean my home everyday
one thing i haven't done everyday
( & it pains me to admit this)
is sit quietly before Him.
just sit
just be
& listen
in 2009 i began reading the bible through in chronological order.
in 2010 i was still not finished.
i did however find time to read dozens & dozens & dozens of other books.
great prioritization skills right?
i can sit with my laptop in hand & play on photoshop for hours
yet there are some days when i never pick up my bible
ugh
i can barely admit that.
for where your treasure is there your heart will be also.
matthew 6.21
i'm thinking my heart and my treasure
have both been much more in tidiness & adding mileage on my daily run.
as much as running & photography & a clean orderly home are good things
they should not get the best of me
& the best of me is usually in the uninterrupted wee hours in the morning
when i slip downstairs
often times before anyone else.
once the day gets rolling
i find it much more of a challenge to sit
to sit & be quiet
read scripture
journal my prayers
so
i'm back in the saddle
i will finish reading through the bible this year
i'm not a big new years resolutions girl.
but i have a few ideas on how i will spend the early morning hours.
the first ones
when my thoughts are fresh
& my home is quiet.
i will give my best time to Him
not facebook or photoshop
i once asked a mentor of mine
how & when she spent time with the Lord
she has a bustling household & has many hobbies.
she told me what a wise friend once told her.
"i give my first best time to Him.
somedays that doesn't occur until 4pm.
somedays that's at 5am. but my first best time goes to Him"
i loved that. freeing right?
so
here's to making sure
i spend my first best time well
& where my treasure is
my heart
will
be
will
be
also