draggin' & a goal

i'm not sure what my problem is.

three months ago i ran a half marathon.

seems like ever since, i go out & run 2-3 miles

& need to stop and walk a couple times.

what?

i've been running for over 30 years

& a 2-3 miler is a regular daily jog

which does not involve stopping and walking.

(until lately)

same thing at kickboxing.

for years i can hold my own in there

yet the last few classes i find myself looking at the clock 

wondering if we're almost done. 

most days the thought of a nap seems heavenly.

while i seldom do it, i'd love to. daily.

i go to bed at my regular time and sleep about 7-8 hours.

wake up feeling fine

it just seems my energy level, especially with exercise 

feels like it's at an all time low.

i'm completely disgusted with my current weight.
but i'll save ya'll from that rant.

so last night i decided to put my game face on
and get serious.
 after working out in the morning, i went back out and had a good run last night
and thought up my plan.

i actually didn't feel like i needed a nap yesterday
which i explained to dan coulda been because i was shopping at target
during my usual crash time.
i'm going to make some minor diet changes
& really take my work outs up a notch.
adding two a days ( i feel like a football player),
more frequent ( much overdo) visits to my gym,
weights class, running, walking
& climbing the local mountain
to the mix.
apparently increase my shopping too.

i've set a weight loss goal.
when i get half way there
i'm going to splurge and purchase the free people top 
i've been dying for.
hopefully in a size smaller than i would have.

my girlfriend kasey has totally
redefined herself as a workout machine
& lost weight and looks insanely great!
while i wish i could have her whip me into shape over in hawaii
i'll do what i can here in on the mainland.
i'm inspired
& i'm putting it out here to keep me accountable.

i've done this before
i can do it again.
alrighty, gotta run....