a little intimidated

at the risk sounding cliche,

where does the time go?

the girl's summer break began may 22 & that break came to a screeching halt yesterday morning between 6 & 7 am .

back to school....here we go again!

as much as i love a break from all the carpools , homework, committee meetings, etc, i really function much better with a schedule. i hear the collective sighs. i know....i hate to let you down. i'd love to be a carefree hang-out kinda girl, but truth be told, i'm just not very productive in the summer.
i feel like our household runs more efficiently when we know what's on tap for the week. i'm better about getting well balanced meals on the table, my quiet time gets rolling again & for crying out loud, my neglected blog visiting can get back up to par!

i feel like i need to drop by about two dozen blogs & cut and paste the ole'

" sorry i haven't been by for a visit the last 10 weeks. life is good. just not much time on the computer when there are 6 of us here bidding for time on. please forgive me. i missed ya though!"

on that note, i must be honest....i've been a little intimidated lately. there's a handful of bloggers (some i've recently stumbled upon) that i am completely blown away by.

if i have the same 24 hours in my day as they have in theirs,

why don't i get as much done as they do?

let me clarify

~interesting entries....sometimes i just don't have anything fabulous to say. actually i rarely feel like i have something interesting to say. meanwhile, there are so many of you out there who just ooze wonderful entries.....frequently, like every other day!

~amazing homes.....trying to live somewhat on a budget ( yes, its hard for me to even choke out that word) these days means that i don't often--or ever have new fantastic decorating to share.

honestly, i struggle with a little discontent with all the projects i'd love to do around my home. then i stop, feel guilty, & remind myself how truly blessed i am, even without the beloved sofa & chairandahalf from pottery barn......sigh

~beautiful photos....when do these fantastic bloggers upload & edit all these fantastic photos? i have recently purchased some textures that i'm dying to get my hands on, but my resident computer geek ( aka--busy 16 year old) isn't home enough to give me an inservice.

~inspiring words...i don't think my mind works that way. i'll just leave it at that

~projects....heidi swapp, rhonna, & jenni bowlin are my fave scrapbook artists --they are completely insane. amazing projects, daily! do these women sleep?

meanwhile, back here at the ranch i have an entire 54" table set up with loads of papers & ephemera, just waiting for my creative juices to get going. well, they got up & went because i haven't done a thing...in months...ugh.

so my hat's off to you ladies who inspire me out there.

you have a voice in your blog, whether you realize it or not

& there are so many voices i love to come by & hear

even if i haven't 'said hello' in the last several weeks.

ok, back to the original question

where does my time go?

what am i spending my time on?

what am i investing in that has purpose?

what are my priorities?

i don't want my days to go by in blur, looking back & wondering what do i have to show for how i chose to spend my day.

yes, i'm a girl who needs order

yes i have a busy household

& yes, i really do want to do many things well

i've spent some time the last several days thinking about just that.

the new school is a great time for me to start over if you will

i feel like the Lord has put some things on my heart that i want to get into play in my household.

& i want to share them with ya'll.

but since my littlest one will be running in the door any minute, i gotta go.

but we'll talk soon!

xo